Over the last week, I’ve been trying really hard to maintain my professionalism. I’ve never really thought about it much in the past — at least, not past being pleasant, on time, and doing my job. But I think there’s a bit more to professionalism than smiling at work.
The hardest thing I’m dealing with right now is being tired. I am tired all the time — it comes from working a 40 hour work week, being full-time enrolled in classes, and preparing for two consecutive performances. I try really hard to get eight hours of sleep a night, but that only works maybe three nights a week if I’m lucky. I get up at 7am to be at work by 8:30, and then school until about three and then more work until about eight. And by the time it’s 8pm, I’ve already been working / in class for 12 hours, but I still have performance practice or more work or babysitting. By the time I get home, Heather can tell you, I’m easily irritated and absurdly exhausted.
Maintaining professionalism at practice with DSS and Biscuits is the hardest. By that time, I’ve already had a full day of class and work — and because both practices are on Thursday, I’ve had almost a full week of class, work, and a distinct lack of sleep. I tend to be tired, and have a hard time finding the energy to practice the way I should be practicing. I have a hard time getting some moves, and I get easily frustrated with simple things I just can’t nail the first time.
It needs to stop. I need to be professional. Even when my day has been absurdly long, I need to go to practice as if I were performing tomorrow.
Just a thought.